Chello y'all!
It's been a while since my last post, it seems even though I don't have a job or school right now, I am busy busy busy!
Yesterday there was a new experience that my little girl had. Her first plane ride! The first plane ride was amazing. I took a picture to document it, but unfortunately I couldn't reach my video camera to document it further :( Briley slept the entire flight which wasn't far (just from Fayetteville to Charlotte), but still the entire flight. And I was one proud mama. I as so fearful that she was going to just scream the entire time, but she just conked right out.
Once we got to Charlotte, it was a different story. We had a 4 hour layover and man was it hell. Whatever I did Briley was just not a happy camper. I changed her, fed her (which was an experience in itself, I'll explain later), tried to sit and pat her butt, walked her around, drove her around in the stroller, carried her in the carrier nothing was working. She was exhausted and so was I, yet she was fighting sleep horribly. Granted it was her bedtime and we were in a loud and bright airport. The lifesaver in this hell of a layover? Rockingchairs. The Charlotte airport has them everywhere in the terminals, and I love them! They are the perfect seat to have with a baby. I sat, put Briley's pacifer in her mouth, and rocked. In five minutes she was out! It was a miracle. She continued to sleep all the way through boarding the plane, take off, and the entire flight. She only woke up when we landed in Fort Walton and taxied to the gate. However she did fall right back asleep. I was one proud mama, considering there was a ridiculously loud 5 year old with a pacifier on the flight and my 2 month old did not make one peep! :)
Okay, so back to feeding my daughter. Now I'm a breastfeeding mama, and I'm proud of it; however, I am not comfortable with just whipping my boob out anywhere in public, I am the kind to cover up when I do it. (Nothing against the mama's that do, more power to you ladies!) I looked for the calmest place in the airport, with any form of comfortable available seating. Do you know how hard that is?! I must've looked for a good 20-30 minutes all the while with a baby who was threatening to scream. After looking and finding the best place to feed her, I had to wrangle my screaming child and my tanktop along with my bra and the blanket to cover. It was a sight to see. As soon and I got Briley and myself situated and she was eating, I got the most ridiculous looks from people. They were staring at me like I had two heads. I don't know if they have ever seen a woman feeding her child, but they made me feel super awkward, and if you know me, you know that that is hard to do. *Sigh* I'm just glad that the experience is out of the way, until 10 days from now when we will do the same thing going back home. ;)
Moral of my story: try not to have a ridiculously long layover. It will be better on you and your child(ren). :)
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
And the countdown begins..
Well, my amazing husband has been gone for a little over one week. I don't know if I should end that sentence with an "already" or "only". This deployment so far has been completely different that the last one. I think the biggest change is the fact that I have a daughter. I thought that I would be really sad at this point, but Briley has kept me smiling and busy all day long; not to mention my bestie Brooke and her son Newt have kept us both entertained. :)
The hardest thing is going from living with someone to living by yourself with a baby. Ugh, sometimes I wish that I had an extra arm just to be able to let the dogs out or to shoo the cat off the couch. It is difficult to have to do everything by yourself. Now that we are getting better at our routine I think that it'll get easier. But I guess that we will see :)
Oh, and I have Brian's address so anyone that wants it please contact me.
The hardest thing is going from living with someone to living by yourself with a baby. Ugh, sometimes I wish that I had an extra arm just to be able to let the dogs out or to shoo the cat off the couch. It is difficult to have to do everything by yourself. Now that we are getting better at our routine I think that it'll get easier. But I guess that we will see :)
Oh, and I have Brian's address so anyone that wants it please contact me.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Here we go again
So yesterday my husband left for deployment. And with him he took my heart, and my soul, and what feels like half of my body. I love him more than words can say and miss hom so much already. This being my second deployment I thought that it would be easier, right? Wrong! If anything it feels just like I'm doing this for the first time all over again.
I know that Brian and I both felt like this deployment crept up on us some how. I don't know where the time has slipped away to; I feel like just yesterday we were at the hospital holding a just born Briley. And next thing we know, there were are standing on Devil Field in 82 degree weather surrounded by multi-cam. This time saying good bye wasn't any easier for either of us. I felt my heart literally breaking as Brian was holding Briley and kissing us both good bye for last time for 9 months. Watching Brian holding his 6 week old daughter, I could see the realization on his face as it registered how much he was actually going to be missing in the next months. I think that moment is what truly hit me the hardest and made me cry like a baby.
Going through the rest of the day wasn't so bad because I spent it with Brooke, one of my newest best friends. And we went to see our friend Monica's brand new baby boy Bryce. (By the way he is a beautiful baby boy.) But after the whole "keeping myself busy" for a few hours, I had to do what I dreaded most: go home. As soon as I walked through the door and took care of the animals, I saw the note that my amazingly sweet husband left me I lost it. I just leaned against the wall and let myself cry. I gave myself only 5 minutes, and then I held it together pretty well until Briley's bath and bed time. Going to sleep in my queen sized bed all alone was a sad realization that this deployment is real.
So here we are again, this time I'm not just a wife but a mother. And I have to be strong and set an example for my daughter. We love and miss you Brian! We are so proud of you! Stay safe and come home soon. <3
I know that Brian and I both felt like this deployment crept up on us some how. I don't know where the time has slipped away to; I feel like just yesterday we were at the hospital holding a just born Briley. And next thing we know, there were are standing on Devil Field in 82 degree weather surrounded by multi-cam. This time saying good bye wasn't any easier for either of us. I felt my heart literally breaking as Brian was holding Briley and kissing us both good bye for last time for 9 months. Watching Brian holding his 6 week old daughter, I could see the realization on his face as it registered how much he was actually going to be missing in the next months. I think that moment is what truly hit me the hardest and made me cry like a baby.
Going through the rest of the day wasn't so bad because I spent it with Brooke, one of my newest best friends. And we went to see our friend Monica's brand new baby boy Bryce. (By the way he is a beautiful baby boy.) But after the whole "keeping myself busy" for a few hours, I had to do what I dreaded most: go home. As soon as I walked through the door and took care of the animals, I saw the note that my amazingly sweet husband left me I lost it. I just leaned against the wall and let myself cry. I gave myself only 5 minutes, and then I held it together pretty well until Briley's bath and bed time. Going to sleep in my queen sized bed all alone was a sad realization that this deployment is real.
So here we are again, this time I'm not just a wife but a mother. And I have to be strong and set an example for my daughter. We love and miss you Brian! We are so proud of you! Stay safe and come home soon. <3
Sunday, March 11, 2012
I suck...
Hey y'all! I suck, I'm sorry it's so long between posts. This one is just going to be a little quick one because I have been super busy and have so much to do in the next few days. But right now I've been focused on having family time and soaking it all up for the next little while. My next post will probably be in a few days, so thanks for reading along and more importantly, being patient. :)
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Pre-deployment
Now if you are a military spouse, then you already know what those two little words mean. If you aren't then you can't fully grasp how those two little words affect a military family's life. Right now we are in the pre-deployment phase, and again for those of you that don't know, it sucks.
Pre-depoyment means many things; one, that your soldier is about to be gone for a long period of time to a foreign country where there is more danger than most can imagine. Two, that your soldier's leadership are cramming all the paperwork and training that they should have been doing for the last month or two into the last two weeks before deployment so they are at work until some God-awful hour of the night when they should be at home soaking up the last precious days with their families. Three, spending the money that you don't really have on all the last minute things that your solider "needs" (again, according to leadership) like a 4" patch sewn on his ruck that costs $60!! Yeesh! And four, the stress and anxiety of the deployment possibly taking a toll on your relationship.
Now for any family members reading this the first thing that you have to understand for deployment is OPSEC or operational security. This means that no dates or places related to deployment are posted on anything, ESPECIALLY on Facebook. Any information can put my soldier in danger along with others, and if you do that, I will have no problem kicking your ass. So what I CAN tell you is that Brian will be leaving soon, and he will be gone for 6-9 months to Afghanistan. If you would like to know more, send me a message and I can explain more.
Right now, I feel that the pre-deployment phase isn't real, which I know is stupid to say because obviously it is. I can say that knowing that my husband is leaving in a short amount of time for about 6-9 months is real because I can see it in the look on his face every time he looks at Briley. I can see him staring at her and already calculating how much he is going to miss every month that he is away. And that part breaks my heart. Don't get me wrong, I am going to miss my husband more than words can say. It'll be like missing a body part. But knowing that my daughter will be missing her daddy and he will be missing her tears me up. :( I will be fine, I will adjust, I'll act like everything is okay, because I have my daughter to set an example for and to keep me strong. And we will just be counting down the days until Daddy comes home.
Pre-depoyment means many things; one, that your soldier is about to be gone for a long period of time to a foreign country where there is more danger than most can imagine. Two, that your soldier's leadership are cramming all the paperwork and training that they should have been doing for the last month or two into the last two weeks before deployment so they are at work until some God-awful hour of the night when they should be at home soaking up the last precious days with their families. Three, spending the money that you don't really have on all the last minute things that your solider "needs" (again, according to leadership) like a 4" patch sewn on his ruck that costs $60!! Yeesh! And four, the stress and anxiety of the deployment possibly taking a toll on your relationship.
Now for any family members reading this the first thing that you have to understand for deployment is OPSEC or operational security. This means that no dates or places related to deployment are posted on anything, ESPECIALLY on Facebook. Any information can put my soldier in danger along with others, and if you do that, I will have no problem kicking your ass. So what I CAN tell you is that Brian will be leaving soon, and he will be gone for 6-9 months to Afghanistan. If you would like to know more, send me a message and I can explain more.
Right now, I feel that the pre-deployment phase isn't real, which I know is stupid to say because obviously it is. I can say that knowing that my husband is leaving in a short amount of time for about 6-9 months is real because I can see it in the look on his face every time he looks at Briley. I can see him staring at her and already calculating how much he is going to miss every month that he is away. And that part breaks my heart. Don't get me wrong, I am going to miss my husband more than words can say. It'll be like missing a body part. But knowing that my daughter will be missing her daddy and he will be missing her tears me up. :( I will be fine, I will adjust, I'll act like everything is okay, because I have my daughter to set an example for and to keep me strong. And we will just be counting down the days until Daddy comes home.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Long time, no post!
Hey y'all!!
Sorry it's been so long since I've posted last, but I guess that having a baby does that to you! ;) First of all Happy Valentine's Day (or if you're bitter and hate this day, then Happy Single Awareness Day to you!)! I hope that you get to spend the day with the one or ones that you love most.
Most people are stuck in the mind set that Valentine's Day is the one day a year when you show that special someone that you love exactly how much you love them. I think Adam Sandler said it, or tweeted it rather, best; he said "those of you guys who are only treating your lady like a queen one day a year are failing the other 364". I think that this is one of the smartest things that he's ever said (now if you've seen Adam Sandler's movies, you know what I'm talking about). Now not that it just applies to men treating their ladies, but also to the ladies treating their men. I think the mind set that we show our love on only one day a year is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.
Now guys, I'm not saying that you have to come home everyday with a fresh boquet of flowers for your lady (or ladies slaving over the stove to cook his favorite meals everyday); but for me it's the little things that say "I love you" the loudest and the things that you may want to try everyday. For example, when my hubby does the little things for me like load and unload the dishwasher without me mentioning it, or bringing down the laundry hamper and getting the first load of laundry started. To me, these are the biggest expressions of love because Brian knows that he is helping me out. And I know that Brian loves it when I massage his scalp when we lay on the couch, or when I rub his back before he drifts off to sleep, and the greatest thing when I stop by the class six and pick up a six pack and put it in the fridge just because.
So I think that love needs to be shown everyday, not always in grand gestures, but in the little things. Because if we are just waiting around for that one day a year, should our better half sit around and wait for us? <3
Sorry it's been so long since I've posted last, but I guess that having a baby does that to you! ;) First of all Happy Valentine's Day (or if you're bitter and hate this day, then Happy Single Awareness Day to you!)! I hope that you get to spend the day with the one or ones that you love most.
Most people are stuck in the mind set that Valentine's Day is the one day a year when you show that special someone that you love exactly how much you love them. I think Adam Sandler said it, or tweeted it rather, best; he said "those of you guys who are only treating your lady like a queen one day a year are failing the other 364". I think that this is one of the smartest things that he's ever said (now if you've seen Adam Sandler's movies, you know what I'm talking about). Now not that it just applies to men treating their ladies, but also to the ladies treating their men. I think the mind set that we show our love on only one day a year is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.
Now guys, I'm not saying that you have to come home everyday with a fresh boquet of flowers for your lady (or ladies slaving over the stove to cook his favorite meals everyday); but for me it's the little things that say "I love you" the loudest and the things that you may want to try everyday. For example, when my hubby does the little things for me like load and unload the dishwasher without me mentioning it, or bringing down the laundry hamper and getting the first load of laundry started. To me, these are the biggest expressions of love because Brian knows that he is helping me out. And I know that Brian loves it when I massage his scalp when we lay on the couch, or when I rub his back before he drifts off to sleep, and the greatest thing when I stop by the class six and pick up a six pack and put it in the fridge just because.
So I think that love needs to be shown everyday, not always in grand gestures, but in the little things. Because if we are just waiting around for that one day a year, should our better half sit around and wait for us? <3
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| My Little Valentine <3 |
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Life
Today life taught me another lesson: that life is short. You only have a certain time on the earth, and you don't know when your time is up. You need to live your life the best way that you know how and tell those that you love how much they mean to you. I love my family so much and I don't know what I would do without any of them.
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